Conflicted

For the last 4 days I have lived, breathed, dreamed, slept educational technology.  I have enjoyed every last second of it.  I am tweeting, retweeting, blogging, reading blogs as fast as they can be posted.  It has been my full time job.

However, with returning to work tomorrow, I am afraid I will lose some of it.  No longer will I be able to focus all my attention on my PLN, or the blogs being written, all the advice that this great tool we call the Internet has to offer.  Instead, I have to, gulp, teach.

This is the part where I always lose my great momentum.  I have good ideas, great intentions, I'm full of excitement at the thought of the possibilities that lie before me.  But once I enter the classroom, and I can't use the ideas this second, I feel like I lose them. 

This time, however, I am focusing on staying motivated.  I know my world can't revolve around my Twitter page, but continued learning can still be a part of my life.

I have a hard time mixing all the parts of my life together.  I have 120 students, 3 of my own kids, a husband, plus list of hobbies.  What I often struggle with is combining all of this so I am successful at all of them.  I often feel like I am failing on all courts.  It is a constant struggle to stay on top of my job, plus delve into it further, reading, tweeting, blogging, creating, without taking something away from my kids.  The things that cause the most stress about my job are the things I love the most: learning!

No matter the time it takes, I am thrilled to have been introduced to a whole world of educators who love their jobs and want to excel at their jobs as much as I do!